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Final period
May 9, 2007
Oh the fifth period just started for 9 days but I feel like a month has already passed. It has been long as a lot happened. I really feel good and refresh to do this AMC course. After working on the same thing for my thesis (plus internship) for so many (7) months, I really got fed up with it. It is really good to do something else different. I feel like I can use the other parts of my brain to function.
Even though I like the course because I can learn a lot from it and it gives me other topics to work on, it is really hampering me from working on my thesis. I REALLY REALLY want to FINISH writing the thesis SOON and get it out of my way/head!!!
Ok, now after I vent it out, I had better get back to work again....
*Signnnnnnn....
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The time is just running out too fast...I am now visualizing the sand clock which the last bit of the sand is draining down...and down...
I am experiencing mixed emotions.
- Interested, excited, and motivated: What will happen next (in term of career/study)?, Where will I end up going/staying?
- Unsure, insecured: to make decisions, to take a step, and I always have the "What if...?" question.
- Fear: of uncertainties, of changes, of losing I think these doubting and fear are my bigest enemies. I hate them but still need to have/use them once in awhile.
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Um, I just noticed something. Even though having to do other work in between the writing phase of my thesis is slowing down the work, it is not all that bad. I didn't have time to touch my thesis file for almost a week. Surprisingly, when I came back to it, I feel like I have a fresh look at it and that kind of give me a better idea on how to write things down where I was stuck before. So, taking a break can also be productive sometimes.
Take my handTake my hand
I love listening to the sound of your heart beat when you hold me close.
I truely miss you and the touch of your hands when you are not around.
You let me in your world, take me to your heart and show me what love feel like.
Since you walked into my life, the days before all fade to black and white.
You give me colors and you paint my life.
Like a magic, it is you who keep me smile even when the sun doesn't shine so bright.
I have never been till this moment here to the deepest love.
I have never felt this way till it's time your love fills my soul.
One in a millions...and it takes me almost three decades...See? how difficult it is to meet someone right and fall in love (even though it can just take a blink when happens and when that person is standing right in front of you).
Yet, to fall in love seems to be the easiest part of the relationship.
Wondering how lovers met and what makes it last.
People say nothing is forever.
But we are here and now...and something’s telling me that it might be you who will take me through.
I am not afraid of being wrong but I am just hoping I am right.
Curiosity never stops. We live, learn and explore...that always make us feel fresh and brand new.
We’re going to take our time as still more dreams to wake.
And with you, still more walk to take…We can do that together in many many places…different corners of the World.
So, take my hand...and off we will go.
So, take my hand...and never let go.
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Now you know what is going on with me...Yes, I am absolutely in love!
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